cjane captures a lot of my thoughts and feelings about infertility in this post. I love it. I think I am going to send her a thank you note! How did she do this without a direct portal into my heart and mind?
I've been trying to figure this out... Life without kids.
I'm done having a broken heart over this. I can't do it any more. I'm wasting time, and it's time to move on.
So where does this put me? What does my life mean? What is my purpose? What good can I do? How can I touch others around me? Who will care for me when I'm old? Who can I care for when I'm old? What should I do instead of pursuing this elusive dream? Where can I focus my energy? What is worthy of my heart and soul?
Try to read those questions above in a positive tone, friends of the blog. This is my attempt at making a beginning, not an choosing an end.
These are Kitty's deep thoughts for today.
Hugs.
Hasta la vista!
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I love what she said. And I'll be interested in seeing how the answers to all of your questions play out.
I hear you friend :)
Well spoken my K8. With love.
"And adoption is not a scientific cure for infertility--and it's not an emotional cure either."
I can vouch for this very comment. I'm so grateful for the chance to adopt Justin but I have to admit the heart ache is still there, the empty feeling, the loneliness.
Don't get me wrong, I wouldn't trade Justin for 20 of my own biological children and I love him unconditionally. Is it wrong still to long for the chance to carry to term?
I feel your aching heart sweet Kate. I don't know what you're going thru, we all handle things differently. I know that you've made a difference in my life and I adore you to pieces. I know there are 2 kids out there who are the luckiest kids on the planet. If my ex were to re-marry, I pray that he would find someone who is as good to Justin as you are to Nathan and Abby! I love you Girl!
oh, and the comment about if you come unto Christ he'll make our weaknesses strengths...not buying it. My weaknesses became strengths as soon as I let go of that belief. I found the REAL me and I love her! I hope I don't offend anyone by speaking from my heart. I know you love me anyway!
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