Yesterday I got felt up.
By my doctor.
Let me amend this... I got felt up by my hunky doctor.
Who I am pretty sure is 100% gay.
Which makes me 100% comfortable.
Because these days, there is only one person whom I really want to feel me up.
(You know who I'm talking about.)
Friends of the blog... if you are female... I really hope you get these yearly check-ups. They are "free" with your insurance (meaning they are covered with no extra co-pay) and they can save your life.
Anyway.
My doctor found a lump (which has been detected before) and I'll be getting that checked out. Again. It always amounts to nothing. But I'll get the ultrasound and mammogram again... just to be safe.
I have had one lump removed in the past, and it was nothing. However, it brought me great peace of mind to have it removed. And if you find something similar, I hope you will do the same. Get it checked out, get it removed, and get it treated, if necessary.
Yes, I am being very personal today, but it's something I believe in, and I think you should, too.
I also talked to my doctor today about my fertility. As you know, babies have yet to grace the House of B, other than our awesome teenage babies, whom we adore more than life itself, and who are not really babies. During our appointment today, I told Dr. S. that I have kind of given up hope. I am 37 now. Most of my friends are done having babies. I have gone through months and years of hoping and not getting. But... well... I guess have not completely given up hope, because I still have that hopeful, anticipatory feeling every month. Perhaps it is more accurate to say that I am moving more toward acceptance. It's an up and down thing... but I think I have mostly moved past obsessing and charting and calendaring and crying every month and all that jazz. If it's going to happen, it will happen. We'll keep trying, but maybe I just never will have a baby, and that is just life. It is what it is.
Dr. S asked me how far we're willing to go. He asked about in vitro fertilization. I must be honest here... this is something Ryan and I have discussed more than once. Friends of the blog, while I don't judge you if this is something you have done, this is not something Ryan and I are willing to do.We're just not. It's not our thing. We are not millionaires, nor are we willing to go into debt or compromise our financial stability for our already existing family, nor are we childless and desperate. If we're going to have a child together, Ryan and I both want it to happen in a more natural manner. We don't want conception, if it happens, to be a clinical procedure. We're willing to try other things, but not this.
No need to comment or email me with suggestions or thoughts on in vitro fertilization. The discussion is closed and there's no changing our minds. We will, however, accept your prayers and positive energy on the matter of somehow getting a baby to the House of B!
It was a good appointment. I'm glad I went. I'll talk about babies and let Dr. S. feel me up any time he wants!
...or maybe just once a year when it's "free."
P.S. Schedule your exam today!
7 comments:
Glad you are healthy. I will send you positive thoughts. Life is good. You guys have each other. I love you Kate!
Thanks for the reminder! Also, sending you hugs too. :)
You girls are the best! :)
Funny timing I had my yearly on Monday. And like you I'm all good. Well except for the fact that my Dr told me if my current state of celibacy endures through 5 years (at 4.5 right now) that I don't have to have a yearly pap but every other year. Not exactly a down side but like you is was hoping that I would have had kids by now and a husband to go along with them. Some things just don't work out and I'm trying to be ok with that. Some days I'm fine and others, well, I'm not.
Oh well, either way, yeah on being healthy! Especially in the light of all you have been through. :)
You are an amazing couple, I hope and pray that you'll find peace of mind and God will decide how He wants you to bear fruit.
Thanks for the reminder about check-ups!
Love the post! I have also had a benign lump removed . It was really traumatic emotionally, but no big deal physically. Check ups: make sure your boy's boys are getting checked too!
Loved this post! Thanks for sharing your getting felt up by your hot doc. And your honest moments about a baby. I hope and pray a a baby comes to the House of B!
*tears*
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